Oct 30, 2008

Impian



Another malay poem i wrote. It's about what is the meaning of dream. it's title is Impian


Mimpi sebuah impian
Berbeda namun sama

Apa erti mimpi
Tafsiran berlainan namun bermakna
Bagi mereka yang menafsirkannya

Seperti si tuli
Mendambakan bisikan cinta ditelinga
Seperti si buta
Menginginkan lakaran indah alam
Seperti si ibu
Mengharapkan masa depan si anak

Tergapai entah bila
Namun hakikat
Manusia hidup demi mimpi
Walau secebis roti
hingga keamanan dunia
demi impian ini manusia terus bernafas


Shaida

Oct 23, 2008

dedication to Park Micky ^^

The vid i told u b4...^^

Oct 21, 2008

Bicara pada Bintang : Senyuman yang hilang

A poem i wrote in malay..
about a lost love....

Setahun telah berlalu di hamparan ini
seorang gadis menatap pada bintang yang sama
bertanyakan apa erti cinta
pada bintang yang sunyi

Sekian lama hamparan ini sepi
hari ini tanahnya menadah titisan air mata
bayunya mendakap hati yang meronta
dan andai bintang bisa berbicara
akan ditenangkan pergolakan jiwa insan terluka

Senyuman tiada lagi
hanya ukiran tidak bererti dibibir
mengaburi mata-mata kaku
yang enggan mengerti tangisan dihati
merindui dan mengasihi


shaida

Flowerpot - Alex Chu


Meolriseo meolriseo meolriseo geudaega oneyo
멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요

He's approaching, from a far far far distance

I tteolrineun maeumeul eotteotge malhaeya hanayo

이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요
How am I to express my shaking heart?

Geudaen
그댄
He...

Cheoeumbuteo naui maeumeul ppaeatgo
처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고

Stole my heart from the very start,

Naeulsu eopneun byeoeul naege jueotjyo

나을수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
And gave me an illness that I cannot recover from.

Hoabuni doilraeyo naneun neul giduhajyo
화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠

I want to become the flower pot, I pray all the time.

nan geudae jakeun changgae hoabuni doilgeyo
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I want to become a flower pot, that stands on his small windowsill

amu mal mothaedo baralsu eopseodo
아무 말 못해도 바랄수 없어도

Even if I won't be able to say a word, or expect anything.

Gakkeum geudaeui misoa songileul bateumyeo

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and caresess

Jamdeun geudae eolgul haneopsi bol su itgetjyo

잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠
And just watch his sleeping face.


meolrido meolrido meolrido geudaega ganayo
멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요

He's leaving, very far far far away.

Tteoleojineun nunmuleul eotteotge dalraeya hanayo

떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요
How am I supposed to soothe these falling tears?

Geudae

그댄
He...

Cheoeumbuteo raeui mauimuil gajyeotgo
처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고

Stole my heart from the very start,

Naeulsu eopneun byeongeul altge hangojyo

나을수 없는 병을 앓게 한거죠
and gave me an illness that I cannot recover.

Hwabuni doigopeun raeneun neul gidohajyo

화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠
I want to become the flowerpot, I pray all the time.

Nan geudae jakeun changgae hwabuni doilgeyo
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I want to become a flower pot, that stands on his small windowsill

Amu mal muthaedo baralsu eopseodo
아무 말 못해도 바랄수 없어도

Even if I won't be able to say a word, or expect anything.

Gakkeum geudaeui misoa songileul bateumyeo

가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
From time to time, I'll receive his smile and caresess

Jamdeun geudae eolgul haneopshi bol su itgetjyo
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

And just watch his sleeping face.

Nan geudae jakeun changgae hwabuni doilgeyo
난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될게요
I want to become a flower pot, that stands on his small windowsill

Amu mal muthaedo baralsu eopseodo
아무 말 못해도 바랄수 없어도

Even if I won't be able to say a word, or expect anything.

Gakkeum geudaeui misoa songileul bateumyeo
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며

From time to time, I'll receive his smile and caresess

Jamdeun geudae eolgul haneopshi bol su itgetjyo
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

And just watch his sleeping face.

Oct 19, 2008

Life of mine



Day passed
but i'm still here
not moving and wondering
what is my purpose and destiny

The life of mine
seem empty and meanless
feeling lost in my own journey
don't know how to go back

show me how
so i don't lost the sight
keep moving on
and find the value of life

Sep 19, 2008

Lost


In this jungle
Can’t find my way out
Dark and scary
And I’m all alone

Tried to call for help
But my voice can’t be heard
I can’t walk anymore
My feet sore and my heart ache
And no tears left for me to cry

Where is the silver lining?
For me to continue with this journey
Where is the light of hope?
For me to gain the courage
That slowly fading away

I walked alone in this jungle
Can’t find my way out
And I don’t have strength left to go on


shaida

Aug 27, 2008

learning new things...


おはよ みんなさん〭〭〭
いま わたし は にほんご れんしゅ が ほしです〭

いま ちよっと わかります〭 そして よろし〱 おねがえします〭


hehe...i'm trying to learn japanese rite now..both writing and speaking...i learn through an online Japanese language resource...so far so good as i do have some basic..but since i rarely use it (no one to use with) so it's a bit rusty...


i bought the books and practice but with no teacher, it won't be the same...so, rite now i just learn as many as i can 1st and try to register to any available class...


i also want to learn korean but since i dun hv the basic ( n no teacher) it is very difficult...but i won't gv up...shaida...Fighting!!

Aug 26, 2008

my first vid...


Yay!! i just finish my first MV...sang together with micky yoochun of DBSK...Bianhae minnie shi... i still luv u like a cute brother of mine...but micky is more bf material for me..

The song is one last cry originally sang by JC Chase but later sang by micky in one of DBSK concert for solo perf...i came across the mp3 version and came out wif dis crazy idea to combine our voice as if we're singing duet..hahahaha...

dis is purely for fun.no intention to hurt anyone...rite now i'm trying to figure out how to upload it in dis blog...



wait for it...if u may



Aug 21, 2008

sad


Today...i'm a bit down. 2 of the people working under me quit just because they can handle the pressure...they said they can't manage with all the working pressure and study...
so sad...the way they said it as if i dun hv 2 worry bout my study...i need to increase my cgpa and all..plus i'm a double major student.with all the assigments and tests and the seaccc program...
and i'm in my 3rd year.
feel like crying but i can't. if i start to cry...i'll become weak n it'll be hard for me to lead the rest of my team.
and i dun hv anyone to share all dis worriness and sadness...
my only way to release all the tension is by listening to Super Junior's songs...watch them in the variety shows...
ottoke...what should i do.............................

Aug 20, 2008

my birthday

Wah...it's my birthday already...
i'm 23 now..how i wish i could celebrate it wif someone...all alone in my room, watching movie alone..
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just kidding...i celebrate it wif my frens..we ate cake and talking about passed year.but i do wish i could celebrate it with woori minnie n micky...
hahaha...hahaha....
rite now i'm starting to luv DBSK...micky yuchoon to be specific...but still, minnie is number 1..
well...as i've become 23 now...i hope a new love will come and accompany my journey.....

saeing chuka hamnida!!! <3

Jul 15, 2008

a point to ponder...

I just read a mgs left by a member on a forum side of SUJU official website...
i agree wif her...
sometime, fans can b really harsh when it come about their idols...they seem to hv a belief dat the idols r belong 2 them...
it does scared me sometime...
so...i'm hoping dat...all fans of SJ will nvr b like dat ^_^
L>O>V>E

Jul 14, 2008

Cooking!Cooking!


The mv of cooking!cooking! is totally cute...


if only i'm da girl in dat mv...TT_TT...


SJ-H members tranformation were awsome...


they can change from 1theme 2 another just like dat...


but 1thing they jst can't change...THEIR CUTENESS!!!


minnie~you r totally adorable...and hyuk jae wif his bag...shin dong wif his new hair...leetuek oppa,your dimple could drown a girl....kang in...you looked like you'd lost so much weigth in dat mv...Yesung oppa...no one can challange your beautiful voice...


Na sarang...*^_^*



L>O>V>E

YAY!!


Huh...my 1st ever blog...i'm so slow wif technology..T_T

let me introduce my self...

i'm shaida85 and now i'm totally in luv wif 1 particular South Korean idol grup,Super Junior...

to any ELFians out there...fell free 2 leave a msg on woori sarang,SuJu...

Ops...my fav member of SJ is the cute pink prince,SungMin...*^_^*

till nxt time...

L>O>V>E